Touch me

This life has been a cover up on whats next

But I was not attent to how I did it

So the two crash and collide

And who didn’t expect that?

The suicide in this matter was the ditch,

And we had a good time together even I have to admit it

But now I want The Inferno or Recognition

Nothing can be median, I cant be, cus

In this world

The middle= mediocre

Even though they share only 3 letters

But one Grade…..C

To C ,

To C what no one is supposed to

To open the wreckage of my car crash heart,

The jaws of life, the jaws of light, became so much more human,

Then I realized they were yours,

But instead of saving me,

They just added to it

The doctor said it could not be fixed, and asked what happened

So I told him:

As I pick u out of a crowd-fro,

I took you on, led you pleased you teased you,

Until this feeling came on,

And you could knock me out with a feather

Or a brick called love

I took you up the stairs to the hotel room,

And the I said,” screw comfort” and then started it their

On a rusty stair

Making out with a crashed car,

Replacing my morals with the Gold-Plated Standard

Treat others the way you want to treat them

So I did…..

And I didn’t get anything

I just wanted everything

To change and keep changing but to not change but to be inadequate forcing change

And at that moment I didn’t care aobut anyone or anything

I came together then fell apart……….

Preaching my feeling ot he microphone stand that my conscience listened to but didn’t

And I creid out in agony, knowing

Thinking

Feeling

That this heart of mine would needto be serviced

Serviced, replaced,

Re-placed in a useful body,

One that would avoid the trainwreck, and the Thrill of

Speeding……

And as you watched. And felt. And enjoyed. And came to me

I realized that it wanst you

You wre becoming what I wanted

What I wished you to be

Similar to me

But it just seemed like it was you

So when I leftand came back

You told me to drop dead

And I realized that I cant blame you

For being what ever you are

But it isn’t my fault for making a move….

But It is

And it will be forever

And never will it change

And that is why

I keep driving around

Through my prison of a head

Getting a good idea after my conjugal visit,

But realizing………….that im just

Median

Mediocre,

Not ready

Not worth it

Not what you want

Not what I want

Not anything

Just a Little more of the thing you moaned on the stairs

-Touch me-

The Meaning of Life

There is no meaning in our world,
	neither is there any meaning in us, the ones who live in it.
	It is then meaningless
	for us, who are equally meaningless, to conceive the world in our thoughts
	despite knowing there is no meaning to be found.

Emotions of War part 3 and 4

PArt 3 was the picture before

Emotions of war part 2

Emotons of war part 1

This is my digital art series wher i took pictures from bleach and other anime series that best embodied the emotional state of warriors at there strongest or weakest moments
here is the first one

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dinh its a house during a tornado, i madev it stadn strong while everything is being consumed

The beginning of the End, of Ulquiorra

Well if you are a bleach fan, then you shuold know this is ichigo as a full hollow. I took the picture from the manga chapter and then painted over it in skin tone on photo shop and then burned the picture using photoshop effects and createdthe shading that is in his abs and other body areas. I then pianted his hair and the flames in the back and then burned that as wel to give it a more 3d-ish look. FInally i took black paint and outlined zangetsu and the area around him and then made a thick red outline and used the smudge tool to make it look more like a getsuga tensho he was charging up.

Art Class Drawings-Broken Blade 1

This is another one of my drawings for my IB Art class that i drew not too long ago. It is of two men after battle, one holding his blade at the throat of another man, who is holding a sword that was broken in battle. The man on the ground is kindof the uncertainty and fear that is hidden inside of warriors, and he has a broken blade because he was not sure of his abilities as a fighter so he failed to defend himself, while the man above is calm and unscathed. He is certain and fearless, but also merciful at the same time.

This is a peice that i did while in art class a few days ago. ITs a linoleum block print that i did so it came out it extremes, dark and light. IT supside down, but if u turn ur monitor upside down it should look right

Fear the Renji

ME and Mah Amigo donovan were talking on facebook and we started t otalk about what it wud be like to see renji and byakuya as hollows. SO i took renji and made him into a hoolow, with zabimaru as his arms, and cero

Lazy SAT DAy

SO this weekend I was taking SATs and i got home at around 2:00, and was dead tired and fell asleep till 530 and missed church, so i had some time to kill until my parents got home and ruined my life. So i got out my watercolor paper and my paint and decided to paint this picture of yuroichi from bleach cus i was kinda bored and needed sumthin to do. It took me about 1 hour to paint this, adding in the drying time lol so this will be my 11th watercolor painting that i have completed to this date, and my 45th or 46th finished peice of art.

最後の剣士の道

So really im not gonnawrite alot cus its 11:33, but anyways....I got this painting idea from a photo my old art teacher took while in Japan, and i decided, it would be pretty beastly to paint it...and as you see here, i did,and it urned out pretty well. I do get the feeling that i overworked the gras sothat it looks like one huge clump and not actual grass, ut i like it, it gives the picture and imaginative, dreamlike feel. But i get this idea that i overblend constantly lol

Haunted

No Boy No Cry

This piece i finished over the christmas break, so it isnt really new, but it is still one of my favortie pieces because of the time and thought i put into creating it and making it the way i had set out to. This peice took me about 4 days to finish, and it is kindof a self portrait, but it is also the picture of someone who has lost a family member/friend to war. My theme for this years IB art RWB is warriors so i decided this might be a way to show how war takes away more than it gives to people. Green, the color of the background is a color that symbolizes growth, so i chose it to show how the figure in the center has to grow and deal with the loss that they just experienced

Murcielago

Ok so bleach fans know what this is, but all those who dont..... I was readin this weeks new bleach and was like WHOA when i saw Ulquiorras release....and i had to draw it, so i did. I pretty much drew it with pencil, and then charcoaled in the wings givingthem a smokier look more like a bat/demon because the kanji for his release was the great black winged demon....... I drew in his number as the line goin down his robe, and then just let it go from there. i was kinda happy with how it turned out, and am hoping that my next picture turns out well too

Hollow:?

I was reading the Bleach issue 344 and was totally impressed at how Tite Kubo drew Ichigo releasing his hollow mask in this issue. I liked this one more than the other release pictures for a reason which i really didnt get until now. I really felt that Kubo was just creating an image that would set up the layout and entire sequence for the rest of the fight.......making it so much more epic and dramatic, and it was kinda scary actually how the maks was just opened at the mouth, when there aren't any real pictures of it doing that before, which just made me go like " Whoa....! darmatic!" lol